The Amazin Asian

January 10, 2004

I have dreamed a dream, but now that dream has gone from me.

I'm trying to think of an elegant way to put it, but I guess I don't have the right words. My dog died a few hours ago. It's a long, painful story that I would never imagine posting. But, I know that most of you who read this blog know my dog, so I thought maybe you would like to know. I know there are some that don't think people should be that sad when pets die... that they're just animals. I know there are tons of worse things out there. I've actually tried to console myself with thoughts of worse things that I don't have to deal with. "I should be happy that I'm not sleeping outside in this freezing weather on the street somewhere." While that is completely true, it's not helping me the way it should in theory. I know she was just a dog, but she was my dog. And if I ever truely loved anything in my life, I loved her, always will.

you've always been there for me
through every girl, every fight
when the rest of the world was dark
i could always hug my light
i don't care if they call me gay
because of the things i write
i wish you were here so i could say
i love you with all my might
cause with a pounding in my heart
and a tear in my eye
this is the only way i have left
to get one last hug and say goodbye

Posted by Mark at January 10, 2004 07:44 AM

Comments

hey man-
So sorry to hear about Ninja. Hope you're doin okay, and stuff. If you need to talk about it or something gimme a ring. I'm gonna miss her too

Angel

Posted by: Angel at January 10, 2004 03:50 PM

Mark,
I'm so sorry about Ninja... If there's anything you need, let me know. Talk to you soon.
Faith.

Posted by: Faith at January 10, 2004 11:37 PM

Mark,
Let me add my voice to the chorus. I'm really sorry for your loss. If you need anything, anything at all, you know where to find me.
-Andrea

Posted by: Andrea at January 12, 2004 11:36 AM

Buddy,

I'm very sorry to hear about Ninja. She was a fantastic dog. Let me know if there is anything I can do.

Brian

Posted by: Brian at January 12, 2004 05:00 PM

Geez, I just found out. There are really no words, other than I'm sorry to hear about Ninja. I remember when you first got her and even the time she bit your uncle's face!! Of course, he MUST have done something to provoke her! Good girl standing up for herself!

As a Christian I have the hope that our pets will be in heaven, not because they have immortal souls, but because God has graciously given us, their owners, eternal life and has promised to "wipe away every tear" in heaven where "there will be no more suffering or death".

Posted by: Sean at January 13, 2004 02:07 AM

so sorry to hear about your loss mark. ninja was a pal to all of us.

Posted by: kupfer at January 13, 2004 08:29 PM

Sorry about Ninja, Marky. I remember how much it sucked when my dog Dax died so I'm there with you if you need it. Keep the faith.

boney

Posted by: Bone at January 13, 2004 09:17 PM

I'm so sorry to hear about Ninja. Remember that time she locked us out of your house? and then you had to climb up to the deck and let us in?she's such a great dog. i'll miss her too.

annie

Posted by: Annie at January 15, 2004 10:57 PM

Hello
sorry to hear about ur dog...
well i was searchin net n was in search o somthing n came to know bout u n ur love for ur dog.. even i have one dog n so i canunderstand what u r goin thru.. have got nothing more to say but trust me... ur dog is fine, god takes care o every one..
SORRY but the fact is every one has to go one day just cherish those moments u spent with her... n don't feel sad.. seein u cryin she'll get uncomfy up there in heaven where rests now...

Posted by: Aditi at February 9, 2004 04:23 PM

Where did you get the title for your story. I would like to know. "I have dreamed a dream, but now that dream has gone from me."

Email me at UNTK001@hotmail.com

Posted by: NTKorn at February 16, 2005 12:23 AM

I am so sorry mark. I have not read this page in a long time and when i read this post it made me cry. i feel horrible that i hadn't known sooner...i'm sure that time has at least begun to heal the pain, but if you need anything you know how to reach me.

Posted by: Michelle at March 2, 2005 03:58 PM